In light of recent conversations. It isn’t always a struggle… rarely, even. But the days that it is, this is as close as I can get to defining it –

6/10/09 Prayer, 11:03 pm

this is not where i thought i’d be now

i walked an hour today
trying to pick up where i left You
only to be met at every corner
by the doubt i’d hoped You’d take away

i’m not prepared to be alone in this venture
is that fair to say to You?
i want to be whispered to
by someone with a voice i can hear

i’m trying to love You wholly and only
You are difficult to tack down,
immeasurable, uncontainable You
You are All and Every, but You do not hold my hand

You understand

he might say my name using sounds i’ve never heard

take me over. make it enough.

  • Leisha October 15, 2009 at 3:33 am

    >Excellent, really excellent. I'm right there with you, even down to the "I don't feel this way most of the time".