I caught a glimpse of heaven tonight.
So I’m at this Rock and Worship Roadshow thing, right, because I was invited and the ticket wasn’t bad and I generally like David Crowder and Mercy Me…and my friends Jennie, Katherine, Chris and I are surrounded by teenagers and I’m feeling like I’m probably past the point in my life where I should be attending teeny bopper worship tours and it’s noisy, which I don’t usually dig, and crowded, and everything is expensive, and the bands are trying to get us to jump but I don’t want to jump and I’m just a bit annoyed… then.
Mercy Me comes on. Within three words, it becomes painfully apparent that something is up with the lead singer’s voice. It actually hurts my throat to listen to him. He struggles through the first song and then confesses that he woke up sick this morning. As the next song starts, he tries to sing the first verse, but it just isn’t happening. So the crowd takes over. Loudly. I know crowds always sing at concerts, but what’s different here is he just stops. He stops singing and hurting and he lets us take it. And the look on that man’s face, hearing strangers carry the song for him, well, let’s just say you could see God show up for him in that moment. He couldn’t stop smiling. Tearing up, but smiling.
Community, right? I think this broke me because it’s been so evident to me lately how blessed I am, how blessed we are, to have people who will carry the song for us when we don’t have a voice. Without hesitating, without even thinking, people step in. I think this is when God is at His most glorious and apparent in our lives – when He places people around us who are walking, talking, tangible ambassadors of grace. Because having God is amazing and humbling and indescribable, but he’s difficult to hug and not always easy to hear. So he networks with ordinary everybodies and gets the message to us through each other. Which is nothing short of awesome.
I think the lead singer guy was enjoying hearing us sing to him, because he started making requests. During the second verse of Amazing Grace it hit me that we were participating in an amazing act of grace at that very moment, and that this sound, the thousand voices singing sound, would be a pretty great sound to hear for the rest of eternity. Some days are hard, and my throat hurts, and I’m tired, and I’m frustrated, and I’m sad, but some days are full of amazing grace.
I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: God is good all the time.
>I just wanted to let you know that I love your blog. I found it through ravelry awhile ago, and your posts are great. About knitting or otherwise. I really enjoyed reading this one. Sometimes I come away with more from one of your posts than I do from a church service. So, thank you.
Jeanne- Wow. You just made my whole week. I totally needed encouragement today, and there you were. So thank you. If you read this, what's your Rav id? I want to look you up! love.
Hey Karyn- I found your blog through your fb post about the knitting post. (By the way… very talented!) Anyway, this post touched my heart. That feeling of exhaustion and helplessness, that has been me lately for reasons I'm not sure I am ready to express. God's grace is amazing and has been so prevalent in my life recently. I fall, I stumble and I am not even close to being "perfect", yet God loves and God forgives and he offers me grace. Thank you for that reminder in this post. I love you and I miss you.Kel
goosebumps. check.i love it. i love it all.i wish i could have been there to be a part of that!
I can see it and hear it, as if I was there with you. God is good all the time, and all the time, God is good. He is always carrying us. Great post, Karyn. I love reading what you're experiencing.
Well, your post really encouraged me when I read it, so perfect! My ravid is jeannec.(All the best this Easter!)
Girl of Cardigan – your posts are fantastic. I enjoyed reading them – they were creative and fresh. Keep it up Karyn.
This touched me deeply. I have been thirsty for heaven lately. Thanks for the picture.